Friends, family, fellow bloggers, new readers - WARNING, I have no idea what this post will be about :)
Sometimes I just want to write. This is more than 1/2 of the reason that I started this blog. Contrary to popular belief I have not always been social. There was definitely a time in my childhood and early adolescence that I was shy. (quiet down all you laughers, I know it is hard to believe now) Writing has always made me feel more at peace and been a great recourse for my emotions. I wouldn't say that I am a highly emotional person, but I have my moments. My biggest issue is that I tend to hold everything in, so when something minimal happens it might be my last straw, IE. an episode of "Parenthood" that makes me cry for 2 hours. (Side note: Bless Ian, he really is a great man) Anyway, my point is that sometimes I just need to write things down because it gives me a way to free all of this information in my mind.
Are any of you ever amazed when a man (or I guess another women) tells you that they are literally thinking about nothing? This NEVER happens to me (with the exception of sex), I mean really nothing? I have a hard time keeping it to just a few things most of the time. I do realize that I have a strange inability to just do nothing. My entire adult life has been full of doing things at 100% all of the time; work, kids, school (mine and theirs), parenting, after school events, karate, art classes, relationships, friends, family.... this list never ends. But there is something in me that just can't stop. I mean for God sake I have raised two children, (nearly on my own, thank you Ian... again) graduated from college, maintained a full time job and for some reason I always feel like I need to do more. When I went back for my Masters Ian made me promise that after this I would find a hobby. HA HA HA HA HA. I am pretty sure that is because my education addiction will cost us roughly $100,000 when said and done but he is right. I do need to find a hobby, I mean what am I going to do with all of these degrees? Blogging is definitely a hobby and thanks to all of you, this blog had 300+ page views last month!!!! But I will definitely need something else as well, or I will drive you all insane.
I'm seriously thinking about the guitar, thoughts? If you think I should try something else let me know, I'd love to hear from all of you!
Saturday, October 19, 2013
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
be grateful
For those of you that actually know me and don't just read the blog, know that I came from a very normal family and went through very normal things growing up. However, being loved and surrounded by positive things is not a failsafe for staying on the right track.
I will not go into details in this forum because no one needs to hear them, but lets just say there was a period of my adolescence where I tested the limits. It took a teenage pregnancy and a whole lot of personal strength to overcome my demons.
I'm going on a decade of the, "straight and narrow" and I make a choice everyday to stay this way. For any of you that are personally addicts, recovering addicts or have a friend or a family member that has dealt with any kind of addiction you know first hand that life is no longer easy.
So many people judge others. One of the things that I despise hearing from people is, "Why don't they just quit? It's simple." All that I have to say to that comment is, "Don't attempt to understand something you have never experienced." If any addict could just STOP, believe me they would. An addiction is about so much more then the substance you choose to abuse. It is about the person that it makes you, the decisions that you make, the judgment that you have and more importantly the way you currently feel about yourself. Quitting is scary because it takes away the one thing you think you know and can control.
This is a part of my life that I don't usually delve into, especially in a public format but I was recently made aware of a situation that makes me wonder if I had been more open if I could have helped someone else. For the person that this is about, know that I love you and I am here for you when you are ready to talk, I won't judge, I won't argue, I will just listen.
For the people reading this, if you know someone that you think needs help or has a problem and is ready to deal with it try to listen to them and point them in the right direction. These things are not easy to do alone, but they can be done. Every addict is different. there is not a "one size fits all" approach that will work across the board. But there are so many options available to meet each person at a level that they are comfortable with. If anyone needs helping finding a place to start please comment on the blog and I will be happy to help you.
We only get once chance at this life and it can be taken from us in an instant. I am here to tell you that life is worth living but getting back to a place where you can enjoy life is the first step. Recovery is a long road, full of obstacles and victories. Every day sober is a win. Be grateful for the life we have been given and never stop pushing to be better than you are right now.
I'll never forget the things that have made me who I am today. Remembering where I have come from keeps me motivated to help change what could be a different ending for someone else.
I will not go into details in this forum because no one needs to hear them, but lets just say there was a period of my adolescence where I tested the limits. It took a teenage pregnancy and a whole lot of personal strength to overcome my demons.
I'm going on a decade of the, "straight and narrow" and I make a choice everyday to stay this way. For any of you that are personally addicts, recovering addicts or have a friend or a family member that has dealt with any kind of addiction you know first hand that life is no longer easy.
So many people judge others. One of the things that I despise hearing from people is, "Why don't they just quit? It's simple." All that I have to say to that comment is, "Don't attempt to understand something you have never experienced." If any addict could just STOP, believe me they would. An addiction is about so much more then the substance you choose to abuse. It is about the person that it makes you, the decisions that you make, the judgment that you have and more importantly the way you currently feel about yourself. Quitting is scary because it takes away the one thing you think you know and can control.
This is a part of my life that I don't usually delve into, especially in a public format but I was recently made aware of a situation that makes me wonder if I had been more open if I could have helped someone else. For the person that this is about, know that I love you and I am here for you when you are ready to talk, I won't judge, I won't argue, I will just listen.
For the people reading this, if you know someone that you think needs help or has a problem and is ready to deal with it try to listen to them and point them in the right direction. These things are not easy to do alone, but they can be done. Every addict is different. there is not a "one size fits all" approach that will work across the board. But there are so many options available to meet each person at a level that they are comfortable with. If anyone needs helping finding a place to start please comment on the blog and I will be happy to help you.
We only get once chance at this life and it can be taken from us in an instant. I am here to tell you that life is worth living but getting back to a place where you can enjoy life is the first step. Recovery is a long road, full of obstacles and victories. Every day sober is a win. Be grateful for the life we have been given and never stop pushing to be better than you are right now.
I'll never forget the things that have made me who I am today. Remembering where I have come from keeps me motivated to help change what could be a different ending for someone else.
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